okay ,
this will be a post for me to vent my anger ..
i know its pretty weird cause since my 15 march post ,
i seldom post about sad or frustrating things .
but this time i really have to puke everything out .

this post is about hate .

i hate this june holidays .
reasons :

- theres so much homework .
- i have to hand in comic strips every friday no matter what ( a story which i have no inspiration at all )
- my mother is giving me so much homework to do on top of what i have to do .
- i fight with my parents often because they dont want me to spend too much time on drawing .
- but if i spend less time and effort in comic , i have to face another music .
- due to conflicts , they cut down my allowance .
- my hair isnt growing in the expected rate .
- even when its quite long , i didnt manage to take nice pictures with it which is really very fucked up .
- i have to cut it this friday , if i dont manage to take neoprint or nice pictures with it , im really going to fuck more people up when school reopens if they talk about me short hair .
- due to money constraints i cant go out often .
- but once i received my allowance , everyone seems to be busy .
- when a friend and i decide to go out , im always the one to look for other people .
- and most of the time , they have last minute trouble and couldnt make it which totally fucked me off .
- my aunt seems dissapointed about me not going to visit my lonely cousin during the holidays .
- this holiday is simply just a waste of time and its just damn short .

others things that im annoyed with :

im quite bored with this blogskin .
out of all the blogskins ive used ,
this is the longest skin i sticked to .
some of you might think its simple and sweet .
but i really wish to design my own blogskin filled with pictures ive taken with my friends
but i dont know how .

theres so much i want to buy
example : clothes , photoshop , a bag .
i seriously need to shop for clothes cause " someone " just threw away 5/6 of my clothes .
and now im only left with 2 outing pants -- ..
im desperate to buy photoshop .
im so damn annoyed with photobucket as the largest size that can fit my post is 320 x 240 .
and its quite small actually as you can see from all my posts .
it cant show the detail of the picture too .
with photobucket ,
i cant add stylish words or bubbles to my pictures effectively .

im very annoyed with some jerk who thinks hes the boss .
ive been trying to keep my white everlast shoes as clean as possible .
but when i walk pass him from behind ,
he just landed his muddy shoes on my shoe .
to make things worse he said it was my own fault .
can i at least hear a " sorry " ?
and seriously ,
everytime we play or speak ,
theres a limit to it .
although im a very playful person ,
i really do take this " limit " seriously ,
once you cross the limit i will warn you first ..
but if you continue ,
you shall face my wrath .
you talk too much ,
some things can be said while some is better to just shut it to yourself .
and some things are just so obvious that you dont need to tell us .

i know " you " hate me , ( you here is not refering to the jerk mentioned above )
and you think i hate you .
well youre right ,
i dislike you but i dont hate you as " hate " is a really strong word to use in this situation .
even if you hate me ,
have you ask yourself WHY i dislike you ?
for your information ,
i consider myself a reasonable person .
i wont dislike or hate someone for no reason .
even if you hate or dislike me ,
dont throw in bad comments about the stuff that i took great efforts to get it done
cause you didnt even help at all .

and some boys ( i wont say the names out )
like to call me a flirt cause i go out with girls more than i do with boys .
but do you know the reason why im often going out with girls ?
no .
let me tell you why ,
everytime i ask boys like you out ,
you would rather play games in your computer than to go out .
so what can i do ?
and you know what ?
check out the meaning of the word " flirt " before you even use it .
flirt : playful behavior intended to arouse sexual interest .
understand each word in this definition before you use it .

lastly ,
when i quarrel with someone you have a crush on ,
dont come to me and fuckingly blame me for everything just because he / she is your crush .
cause if im in the wrong ,
i will realise my mistakes after a while .
if you annoy me cause of your crush ,
i will god damn ignore you ,
so dont act blur and ask me if im angry with you or the reason why im ignoring you .
i believe some of you have experienced it before ,
if im still talking to you right now ,
dont take my friendship for granted cause i can just ignore you for life .
im very serious about this .

ps .
sorry about the rough words ive used in this post .
i just have to get some things clear in your mind .

tata ~

; you are the cause